Thursday, February 12, 2009


Hey people! This is MY blog about MY life! This is the internet, if you don't like then don't read it. I'm sorry so many people feel like all of this is my fault for not taking a job at McDonald's. News Flash....they're not hiring either! You don't know me, only what I write. I also see you've both left the comments anonymously. Are you afraid you'll hurt my feelings if I knew who you were? Honestly, I don't care. I'll just turn off the comments and keep blogging about my life. Don't read my page if you don't like me.

The world is full of different people. Not all of us fit into your cookie cutter ideals. I have every right to brag that my husband bought me that lamp. I have every right to be impressed and happy that he cares about me. It wasn't a luxury item, it was needed. I needed a lamp beside my bed because I have a hard time seeing when the light is dim. He bought it at the flea market for goodness sakes, not that any of you bothered to think of that.

This blog is my outlet. I may whine, cry, bitch, brag, whatever I please. That is what it is for! It is only a small portion of my life. What do you want to hear about? That I put in job applications every day and never hear back? Or the one job interview I had lately had 150 other candidates for the same position? How about the factory I was about to apply to laid off 200 employees, now all looking for one job just like I am.

My kids are fed, we have a roof over our heads that I am very grateful for, and my family had some sort of happiness that we deserve. I don't need any ones approval for that. Not some person on the internet looking down on me that doesn't even have the guts to post their name. And so what if I did know who you are. Unless this was posted by a member of my family, YOU DON'T MATTER. So come on, fire away, lets here what a terrible person I am for being human. I don't give a shit what you think about me. I will keep blogging about my life just the way it is. Good, bad, happy, sad, pissed off, depressed or just want to get my thoughts out of my head.


mg1980 said...

Bravo Rene! Your blog has become a favorite of mine since I accidentally came across it.
I thank you for your candor and honesty. Your outlook and common sense have inspired me on some tough days recently.
We learn the most when we listen to the people with whom we have the least in common.
I have to say, Rene, that our lives could not be more different. However, I have learned so much from you and your blog. For that I will be forever grateful.
Keep up the good work!
Love and prayers,

Marissa said...

Hi Rene, I have never commented before but I have been following your story through the trach boards and your blog for many months before sweet Tommy passed away.

I just want to encourage you to not let these commenters get you down or make you defend yourself in any way. Them posting those nasty comments is just Satan at work. Now, don't get me wrong, I am not calling those people Satan. What I am saying is that Satan's purpose is to use humans to try to turn others against God. Satan kicks people when they are down. He is a coward, just as these anonymous posters are cowardly for hiding their identities. Satan is also very good at hiding his true identity. After all, he turned himself into a seductive snake to tempt Eve to eat the forbidden fruit.

OK, off the soapbox...

I just want to let you know I think you are doing a great job. You have two wonderful boys here on earth, you have renewed a loving relationship with your husband, you are looking for jobs. In this tough economy, that is to be admired, let alone you dealing with the death of your Tommy.

I pray you continue to blog and get your feelings out, the good, the bad, and the ugly. Please know that for every one of Satan's tools, there are countless others who understand your pain and support you. Ignore all the rest.

Feel free to visit my daughter's blog:

Much love,


Emma and Mommy said...

Rene, you said it best. This is the internet. Don't take their comments personally. I wouldn't even bother to comment on them, those type of people probably feed off the attention.

Have you thought of making your blog comments approval only? That is what I had to do when I kept getting hate on Emma's blog and also spam. That way you have to read things before they post.

Anonymous said...

Hooray for you! I read those comments late last night and had a hard time shaking them off, and I don't even know you! My first thought was "Good heavens, the lamp was from THE FLEA MARKET"!!!! Guess it doesn't take much to make SOME people jealous :)
Anyway, you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers today. And remember, if you are a Christian, your job here is to please God, not other people. Keep on going!

Anonymous said...

OMG I'm surely not jealous of a gody lamp from the flea market! I make $100,000+ a year in salary from a job I've had for almost 20 years. I am not one of the orginial posters, but I can see where their comments come from. Where are you from that even fast food places aren't hiring and that 150 people have applied for a single job? I'd move from there ASAP.

Anonymous said...

I have followed your blog for awhile too, and my heart goes out to you and your family. You all have been through quite an ordeal, and are all doing so well at putting the peices back together. I pray for you guys often and I am so happy that you are all together as a family, and able to enjoy life again a little. And the fact that you got so much enjoyment from a flea market lamp is priceless.

Marriages can be tough at times, and even tougher when you have a medically complex child, and then also the loss of a child. I know this from experience; I also have a trach baby, and a baby boy that died. Our marriage has been stretched at the seams as well, so it is with joy that I read your Valentine's story. It was very touching, and healing too.

I would just like to echo the sentiment that a previous poster said about food stamps, or unemployment benefits or SSI; they are there to be USED. By the PEOPLE THAT NEED THEM. I do not feel that Rene has abused them at all whatsoever. EVERYONE needs a little help now and then; a hug, a prayer, or a little financial assitance.

And to the mean-spirited poster who claims to make over 100K and that gets by just fine, there will come a day when you will lose someone you love, or you may face a medical crisis yourself. Then you might understand the simple joy of a flea market lamp, or anything that makes you smile or laugh just for that day. And you will cherish that after so much hardship.

Peace to you Rene; keep on blogging! Know that there are people around the country that are cheering you, your family, and the memory of Tommy on!

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Diagram of Tommy's Heart Defects

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Double Inlet Left Ventricle with Transpostion of the Great Arteries