My baby is fading fast...I can see it in his eyes...and yet, he still needs me like a baby would. He may have the body and skills of a 4 or 5 month old, but his mind is ancient! You can see the understanding in his eyes, even if his body can't respond. He drinks in everything around him. He is such a little ham! I remember not too long ago that he could not smile. Now, if I show him the camera and say "cheese", he will crack the biggest grin! Matthew and Brandon love to stick out their lower lip if they don't get their way. Tommy has copied them and will now try to make the same face!
Then there are the dreams...My first dream was about a month ago. I dreamed that Tommy was one year old. He had never sat up, rolled, crawled, stood, nothing. Then out of the blue, he stands up and starts walking around! Like he had observed all this time and just never needed to do those other things. My second dream I had last night. I dreamed I was on a bus (????), I picked him up and noticed his trach had fallen out and he was laughing at me. Are these my imagination running away with me, or premonition?
We have spent this last week accomplishing things we never thought we would see. Tommy taking a bite of sweet potato from my spoon Tuesday night. Him laying on his tummy and trying to get comfortable enough to doze off. Two weeks ago, he wouldn't even let us put him on his tummy, much less want to sleep that way! When he was born, we were told they just didn't know if he would ever swallow, and now I have to pick up a jar of baby food to give him at his speech appointment tomorrow!
I cherish every day with him! He kicked past every single roadblock the universe sets out there for him! I kinda get the feeling he's blowing raspberries while he does it...I get the feeling great things are ahead for that child!