Friday, October 24, 2008

I Had A Dream About Tommy!

First, a short update. Things are still pretty much where they were last time I updated. I did some testing at a temp agency and found out that I can type 143 wpm with zero errors. That was a confidence booster. I can't wait to have all of this hassle behind us. I can no longer donate plasma. I infiltrated my veins. HUGE bruises. I couldn't move my arm for two days. Oh well. Maybe in a few more weeks, but not anytime soon.

Thank you to those who have donated to both of Tommy's memorial funds. I put the account number and mailing address to the Memorial Fund bank account. Please make checks to the Tommy Dereksen Memorial Fund with the account number in the memo line. You can also donate directly with the paypal button. They are two different accounts, it just depends on how someone chooses to donate.

I know the economy is bad all around. We are definetly feeling it and its NOT a fun place to be. I hate not having a job! I hope things turn around soon for not just us, but for the entire country.

I do want to share a dream I had last week. I dreamed that Tommy's doctors told me that there was no hope and that we should take him home for his last day of life. They took out his trach and stopped all of his medications. We took him home and held him for awhile then put him to bed. The next day he was still alive, and the next and the next! The doctors said it was a miracle. He was completely healed.

I woke up looking for him because it was one of those dreams that just felt so real. It was so comforting to hold Tommy again, to be able to kiss him and hear him laugh. I know he was reaching out to me from Heaven so that we could spend a little time together. I miss him so much. It's been two months since he left us. It doesn't get any easier. It does change from day to day, but I still feel the emptiness every single day.

7 comments:

Emma and Mommy said...

Thanks for the updae. I have been thinking about you a lot recently and really hope things get better for you soon.

I had my vein infiltrated 2 seperate times when donating plasma, can you just not give out of your other arm? The place I go to will let you donate even if you are infiltrated as long as you use the other arm. That stinks I know you were counting on that money.

What is the status of you having to be be out of your trailer? I have been so worried you will have no place to go. Wish I wasn't so far away and I could help Always here if you feel like talking

Lori

Jason B. said...

Have you moved yet?

Dottie said...

Sometimes I think that God gives us little things even if its just a dream to let us have some peace in our sout. I hope God BLesses you and do try to keep your head up.

Dottie said...

Sorry I should of read before I hit the enter. I meant soul not sout. I guess I was still thinking about the lipstick and the pig. Sorry about that

clare. said...

i think the people who have criticised you haven't given enough thought to how easily so many of us could end up in financial trouble. unless you have a lot of money saved, our jobs and homes are pretty fragile things.
i hope things start to improve.
x

Nancy said...

Rene,
Thank you for the messages to both me and my sister, Karen. You are so sweet... you are reaching out to help others while you are in such a bad situation yourself!

I'm so glad that the dream allowed you to feel Tommy in your life again. I'm sorry that he isn't healed and in your arms. Some day.... it will feel like an eternity until that day comes but it will.

(((hugs))) and love,
Nancy

Nancy said...

ps
good grief girl! you type FAST! I sure hope you get some jobs and maybe Rob can find something soon too.

Diagram of Tommy's Heart Defects

Diagram of Tommy's Heart Defects
Double Inlet Left Ventricle with Transpostion of the Great Arteries